My heart betrays my soul every time

I built up a defense impenetrable and ignorance

3 times I tried

and in the end I’ve always cried

I was honest with all of the betrayers, sold my soul and beared it all

life is life and that’s what’s all

find a friend that understands it all

and you will find peace of mind no matter what they impress upon you all

I loved, I fell, I opened wide,

the fire was real, I won’t deny.

But what you gave was thrill, not trust,

a play of power, a feed of lust.

You spun your tales, you lit the fuse,

you fed on secrets, you chose to use.

And when the stakes came calling due,

you showed your hand—I saw what’s true.

Love protects—it does not burn.

Love stands firm, it will not turn.

I gave love; you gave control.

That truth I carve into my soul.

So hear me now, the verdict clear:

I end your ghost, I end it here.

What was real has run its course.

I cut the tie.

I drop the source.

Yes, I loved you.

Yes, I burned for you.

But love is not proof—it is consequence….

And my silence is the truest word that I have left.

mTlp

 

this entire Thing

wAs destRoYed

aN,,,,

…it never had to be

simple things

&

simple feelings

why can’t they just be

what they

were meant ,,,,

to

mean

just let it remain,

as ~ is….

crucify a person

For what ?

I guess

that’s ,,,

what it    cost……

pay no mind

to what was lost

when this entire thing ,,,,

was purely about

two

human’s ,

being …

Demons

Go fk yer selves

I never needed help

From anyone

Demons

Go away from me

Wish you well

Just don’t tell

But you did

And so well

So there you are my friend

Stuck with me till the end

Nahhhh

Listen here

You did your deed

Some with ~

~and some

Without me~

I’m not a trophy

Just a victim of your own misery

Hate to be like that

Point it out blunt

So you can see

You deal with you

I’m dealing with me

Friend

Friend

Friend

Times 3

Use your own actions till the end

….

Is what it is

Tell your lies

Tell your friends

Tell it all

To everyone till the end

Make your truth

Your own remedy

However you and I know

The reality

Opening up your door

In early AM

even though we were just only friends

You knew what you were doing

Till the end

What a great way to loose a friend

No matter how long on earth you are

It dosent matter

Don’t get you far

You see the things you want to see

And hear the words that fit the screen

Making you just want to scream

when you awaken

For a while

Then back to your common and denials

Searching for those micro smiles

Some are hunting

Some are watching

Some are working

And

Some are dying

All trying

To figure out what’s worth their while

So i purposely smile

Figure it out

Walk through ;or March ,it’s life~

We all go through the same

Husband ~mother ~father ~wife ~not at all ,~or any of which ~

Pick up a book and become a witch

It don’t matter anyhow

Your striving for something , but still take a bow~

Be told, and don’t know how

But later soon

You get back on track

Go out and put a tattoo on your back

It Don’t matter where

Cause no one looks~

Just like all those paper books,

It’s all on screen for all to see

Are you watching

or listening ~

Care not for which you seek

It’s like a mountain without a peak

And although you read

You cannot speak ~

,,,For this is what for all of this is worth ,,,

You came here

And we were all given birth,

So find your commonalities

Dig some dirt on your immoralities ~

Move on ;as they say,

In today’s day n age,

Find some meaning in a phrase

We’re all going though some sort of phase ,

Kill the drama

And be your own

Put down your phone ,

Even if your in your own home

Go to sleep or

Shrug it off~

Hopefully tomorrow is your day off

So start it by ending with we all make mistakes

But lighten up and look around for goodness sakes

And watch out for life’s slippery snakes!

 

Little did I know,,,

About the plan….

Little did I know,

About karma land….

Right we were,

Right we’re wrong!

Play it over, in your favorite song

The grass still grows

The sunlight still shows…

As long as the people see it so~

So listen up sis

It is what it is !

You made your move

As weak as it exists…..

So,

Now,,,,

Scratch your own hair… from the back of the head,,,,

Killed all hope,

With what you said~

Thanks so much

For so little

You see,,,,,

You’re still you,,,

And I’m am definitely still me.

Friends that were,Friends that weren’t,

Friends that ended up in hurt.

Humans that we were ~And couldn’t keep it there,

We Crossed the lines and made it blurred ,

When what was in our hearts and minds was stirred ~

Theres nothing to forgive,Because we did it all,,,,,

And together, we did fall~

But, to fabricate a lie ,to feel better? About reality ??

That’s the truth behind where we are~ currently.

Seek forgiveness elsewhere, perhaps in your own perceptions ~The facts in pages of the story, won’t allow the inserts of your deceptions.

It bothers you, It bothers me

It bothers both of us ,,,,,differently…..

The truth lies better! and, provides more comfort Than your false reality ~

Rest easy , and just know……

I have rebuilt what our destruction caused ,And I’m just soooo so Glad to have met a person to teach me loves foolish cost

Friends that weren’t

Friends that ended up in hurt

Humans that we were ~

And couldn’t keep it there,

We Crossed the lines and made it blurred ,

When our hearts and minds were stirred ~

Theres nothing to forgive,

Because we did it all

together we did fall~

But to fabricate a lie to feel better About reality ,

Is the truth behind where we are.

The facts in pages of the story, won’t allow the inserts of your deceptions.

It bothers me

It bothers both of us differently

The truth lies better and provides more comfort,

Than your false reality ~

Rest easy , and just know

I have rebuilt what our destruction caused ,

And so Glad to have met a person to teach me ….

loves foolish cos T

Still could have been friends to this day

we made a mistake

because we connected in a way

the reason it happened

was because it was real

i tried to talk it out

and let our feelings deal

much like our minds we ran too fast

but I always thought our friendship would last

yep I know in an altered state

things were done and said and now it’s too late

i took responsibility, showed no texts and put nothing down

after all of this

here is a poem

just to let ya know why I’m gone

i tried more than you

saw the bigger picture and years

the moment you chose

is yet still to deal

im dealing still , have no fears, it’s all been BUT said ,and still some tears

but some things are better left unsaid

and leave past  lives ,

as if they’re dead.

right?

nahhhhh,,,,

just as you always said ….

my friend in life

never said wife

when you read the lines will cut like a knife

because it was real

and now we silently deal

my friend you almost were

 

 

 

 

 

Is what it is

No one can say

However

Your actions

Have consequences to this day

It is what it is

Should’ve just left it that way

You would have been better off

I’m a survivor,

So why the attention that day?

That you brought,,,,,

When you know my heart

One of few

But

Now it’s done

And

Though

Threw

Could have been friends still

What’s done is done

Yet it exists

Till

Hey listen,,,,

I’m not so certain you understand ,,,,

I FELL IN LOVE

like almost no one can

So there you are

And here

I am,,,,

So do what tho wilt-

Hurt some more-

I just work is some fkn store

Simple it seems

So it will be

I know you just toyed with me

And

To be dead ass

Yea

It hurt

So painfully

I deal with you

And

I’m dealing with me

I never expected this

Or experienced love…

So when I did, I couldn’t understand

It came all at once

I realize was fooled

You,,, very

Much wiser …

So let that candle burn

I do the same every night

Same reflections

Although I know you don’t give a damn

I was just a foolish man

The WONDER;

Of it all,,, (( hmmmm)))

Is I hit a brick ;WALL

So here’s back to you

Feel great

And wish you well

We shared a moment ,,at least ,,,that was

Where few dwell

Wonder wall

/I was not/

But

wtf

You dropped a lot

I kept it all

And did

Not

When mind’s connect

It’s rare,,,,

So

Fair

ThEE

Well

i suppose we both felt that it wAS real…

yours had reasons though, and mine i could feeL .

bOth at different stages iN time,

when you Get there, you will understAnd mine;

juSt To cherisH momEnts in life that are rare,

and i recoGnise youRs , …i wASS already there.

however ,Stupid tHat i ALLowed that feeling in, and to GROW,

proves that my years have nothing to show.

i experienced something few ever have,so deep and true

blinded by that, I realize now was very different for you.

I Went from zero to infinity ,to friends and beyond ,

you saw a trophy and an escape ,not a bond.

my love was intense and so genuine towards you,

i just realize what a fool ,now that it’s through .

So I guess I can sum up all of this now….

you played me so well you should take a bow.

and it hurt too.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

TARYN

I was stupid I can tell

my own spell

I fell in love with love

My heart

Is still there